my mr.right who i believe, he doesn't exist! hahaha. Well every girls in this world must have their own mr.right, right?! So i think its normal when you pick a certain application (hahaha, why did i chose this word?!) on MAN that you think qualified to be your mr.right, right?! . For me, i chose personality over appearance and i pick manner as the first word that popped to my mind when i think about someone's personality. I wish he is really kind and friendly to elders and children because wouldn't a guy like that have good manners with me too? and i like someone who works hard at what he is doing (which is, opposite of me) and is a good listener. And oh i like a guy who is has humor and wit too. But I think there was something that can't be filled up only with personality. It is a good feeling that has to be passed on to the person. In that case, I wish my guy would have a sense of responsibility and honest. Someone who I can trust that's not too easy, but not too pressuring either. But for me all of those qualifications are not important because the most important thing is that he have to be someone who is spiritually mature, someone i can learn from, someone who can guide me spiritualy. I believe someone who is spiritually mature is the best mr. right hahaaaa

yes im KPOPED!!

List your favourite member(s) from each of the following groups :

1. DBSK - YUNHO

2. Big Bang - Taeyang

3. Super Junior - Siwon

4. SHINee - None

5. 2PM -CHANSUNG OPPA CHANSUNG!!

6. 2AM - Jinwoon

7. BEAST - Gi Kwang

8. F.T.Island - Hongki

9. F.Cuz - Kan

10. ZE:A - Siwan

11. Epik High - no idea...

12. MBLAQ - LEE JOON!!

13. U-kiss - eli

14. SS501 - Park Jung Min

15. C.N.Blue - no idea

16. Girls Generation - just for sunny's aegyo...

17. Kara - none

18. 2NE1 - ALL OF EM ARE SO COOL!!

19. 4minute - Hyunah

20. F(X) - none

21. Wonder Girls - none

22. After School - none

23. Brown Eyed Girls - Narsha

24. Rainbow - shoot me!!

25. T-ara - shoot me!!

26. Jewelry - no idea

27. Seeya - no idea

28. Davichi - no idea

29. Secret - no idea

Favourite boy group?: BigBang and SS501
Favourite girl group?: 2NE1
Favourite idol group overall?: Super Junior hahaha
Other groups you love?: 2PM and Mblaq
State your favourites from each of your stated groups above?
SS501 - Kim Hyung Joon
2NE1 - CL
Super Junior - Choi Siwon and Lee Donghae and Kim Heechul
2PM - Chansung and Junsu (charming ^^)
Big Bang - Taeyang *o*
Mblaq - Lee Joon
Favourite solo female singer?: not really into it
Favourite solo male singer?: SE7EN
Favourite idol overall?: SE7EN
Favourite songs right now?: HyunA - Chance
Favourite fanclub?: ELF!!
Favourite entertainment company?: YG
Loved a group you’re not into anymore?: DBSK and Super Junior haahhaa
First K-pop song ever?: Paradise - T Max
First K-pop music video ever?: Sorry sorry - Super Junior
First K-pop love (group/solo)?: Super Juni0000eeeeooorrrrrrrrrr
First variety show (and with who)?: Super Junior Full House and alone T_T
Group you could never get into no matter how much you tried: BEG and SNSD!!
Any dance you can do (from a MV etc) or want to learn?: sorry sorry, mirotic, genie and OhYeah! hahahaha
Any songs you memorized the lyrics to?:
sorry sorry, fire, and lots of 'em
Hottest male in the industry to you?: Hwang Chansung and Choi Siwon
Prettiest female in the industry to you?: Hyuna
A person you want to be like/admire the most?: CL
A song you must/always/usually listen to EVERYday?: after school - because of you (its weird becoz i dont even like 'em hahaha)
Your favorite music videos?: Oh Yeah! and never get bored of Sorry Sorry hahaa
Have any K-Pop merchandise?: DVDs

Super Junior

1. The character I first fell in love with: Siwon
   
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Heechul
   
3. The character everyone else loves that I don’t: Sungmin
   
4. The character I love that everyone else hates: Kangin
   
5. The character I used to love but don’t any longer: Donghae
   
6. The character I’d want to be like: Eunhyuk
7. The character I’d slap: Sungmin
8. A pairing that I love: SiHae
9. A pairing that I despise: Sichul
   
10. Favorite character: Siwon
    
11. My two favorite characters: Siwon and Donghae
    
12. My two least favorite characters: Sungmin and Kyuhyun
    
13. Which character I am most like: Kangin
14. My deep, dark fandom secret: I dont think I have one

BIG BANG

1. The character I first fell in love with: Seungri
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Taeyang
   
3. The character everyone else loves that I don’t: TOP
   
4. The character I love that everyone else hates: Seungri
   
5. The character I used to love but don’t any longer: Seungri
   
6. The character I’d want to be like: Gdragon
7. The character I’d slap: none
   
8. A pairing that I love: G-Ri
9. A pairing that I despise: none
   
10. Favorite character: G-Dragon
    
11. My two favorite characters: GD & SeungRi
    
12. My two least favorite characters: none
    
13. Which character I am most like: Daesung
    

MBLAQ

1. The character I first fell in love with: Lee Joon
   
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Mir
   
3. The character everyone else loves that I don’t: Thunder
4. The character I love that everyone else hates: Lee joon
   
5. The character I used to love but don’t any longer: Seungho
   
6. The character I’d want to be like: G.O
   
7. The character I’d slap: none
8. A pairing that I love: Joonir
   
9. A pairing that I despise: none
   
10. Favorite character: Mir
    
11. My two favorite characters: Mir/Joon
    
12. My two least favorite characters: -
13. Which character I am most like: Mir
    

2PM

1. The character I first fell in love with: Chansung
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Wooyoung
   
3. The character everyone else loves that I don’t: Nickhun
4. The character I love that everyone else hates: Junsu
   
5. The character I used to love but don’t any longer: Taecyeon
   
6. The character I’d want to be like: Nickhun
   
7. The character I’d slap: Taecyeon
   
8. A pairing that I love: ChanHo
   
9. A pairing that I despise: none
   
10. Favorite character: Chansung
    
11. My two favorite characters: Chansung and Junsu
    
12. My two least favorite characters: Junho/Taec
    
13. Which character I am most like: WooYoung

SNSD

1. The character I first fell in love with: none
   
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Sunny
   
3. The character everyone else loves that I don’t: Yoona
   
4. The character I love that everyone else hates: Heyeon
   
5. The character I used to love but don’t any longer: none
   
6. The character I’d want to be like: Sunny
7. The character I’d slap: All of 'em but Sunny
   
8. A pairing that I love: none
   
9. A pairing that I despise: none
   
10. Favorite character: Sunny
    
11. My two favorite characters: Sunny and Yuri
    
12. My two least favorite characters: Tiffany and Yoona
    
13. Which character I am most like: Sunny
    

2NE1

1. The character I first fell in love with: CL
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Dara
   
3. The character everyone else loves that I don’t: Bom
   
4. The character I love that everyone else hates: CL
   
5. The character I used to love but don’t any longer: none
   
6. The character I’d want to be like: CL
7. The character I’d slap: none
   
8. A pairing that I love: minra
   
9. A pairing that I despise: none
   
10. Favorite character: Dara
    
11. My two favorite characters: CL and Dara
    
12. My two least favorite characters: none
    
13. Which character I am most like: Dara

BIG BANG
How did I get into them: When i was watching [V] channel and fell in love ever since ...

Bias: TAEYANG oppa

Favourite song:” Lies” , “Haru Haru” & “Let Me Hear Your Voice” .

Super Junior
How did I get into them: They’re the reasons I’m into KPOP …& It’s becoz i bought SUPER JUNIOR FULL HOUSE dvd and really amused ...

Bias: Hankyung for the first time and Siwon untill now and forever hahahaa

Favourite song: “Mirror “ , “Sorry Sorry” .

2PM
How did I get into them: when i was browsing tru kpop news sites, and started to get to know 'em via wikipedia kekekee

Bias: Just Chansung!!

Favourite song: “Heartbeat” , “I Hate You” , “All Nite Long” & “Only You” .

2AM
How did I get into them: Since I knew 2PM .. I had to know 2AM ..

Bias: Seulong yummy

Favourite song: “Confession of a Friend” , “Even If I Die , I Can’t Let You Go” , “I Did Wrong” ; their songs have such good meaning .

SS501
How did I get into them: from Idol World

Bias: HyunJoong .

Favourite song: All of 'em

MBLAQ
How did I get into them:Uhm , i found that one of them played “Ninja Assassin” … checked him out and he's quite cute

Bias: Dorky Lee Joon

Favourite song: G.O.O.D. LUV

B2ST
How did I get into them: thanks to gikwang, i've downloaded mtv beast documentary kekekee

Bias: GiKwang

Favourite song: "Shock"

Ga kerasa udah 3 bulan kuliah and i'd like to share a short story of mine. 3 bulan yang lalu saat status saya sudah jelas akan kuliah dimana, banyak yang mempertanyakan pilihan saya misalnya ada yang bilang "ngapain di ____ ?" "lo nyasar di ___?" " kenapa ga ke ___ atau ___, yang lain aja kali!" well dalam menghadapi pertanyaan itu jujur saya merasa sangat tersudutkan sampai-sampai saya sendiri udah ga mood untuk ngejelasin duduk perkaranya dan alhasil hanya menjawab dengan cengiran kesal. Tapi kali ini saya mau share semuanyaa. Kenapa saya kuliah di WIDYATAMA (proud to mention it now) karena saya ga keterima di ITB (jujur) dan ga mengikuti tes SMUP UNPAD karena dilanda penyakit pada saat tes dilaksanakan. Loh terus kenapa ga UNPAR or MARANATHA? my answer is simply = against my belief, jadi all clear ya? masalahnya saya sudah membaktikan diri dan berharap dapat terus meningkatkan kerohanian tapi apa jadinya kalau saya menuntut ilmu di institusi yang sudah berkali-kali tidak dianjurkan di setiap kebaktian (walaupun itu masalah hati nurani, for me its a serious thing - yang abu-abu itu resikonya lebih tinggi) apalagi kalau udah masalah sandung menyandung rekan seiman, saya sudah tidak mau ikut campur tangan. Nah, sampailah saya pada masa dimana saya benar benar bingung menentukan pilihan antara ITENAS dan WIDYATAMA, kalau di ITENAS saya tetap mau ambil desain, kalo di WIDYATAMA saya mau ambil manajemen. Seminggu pusing memikirkan dan terus berdoa akhirnya saya menemukan jawaban yaitu WIDYATAMA, kenapa? karena saya merasa desain prospeknya sempit terus kerjanya lebih banyak freelance dan saya tipe orang yg mau kepastian dalam menerima pemasukan per bulan. Kakak saya pun lulusan WIDYATAMA dan saat saya menanyakan pendapatnya, dia pun mendukung keputusan saya. Yasudahlah saya langsung daftar - tes- keterima- daftar ulang- ospek- kuliah deh. Saya puas sekali karena ternyata doa saya terjawab, jadwal kuliah saya sangat memungkinkan untuk meluangkan lebih banyak waktu dalam dinas, terharu dan tersentuh akan segala berkat yang Yehuwa berikan. Walaupun tidak sesuai keinginan (i never thought about enrolling to Widyatama before) tapi memuaskan hati saya. Saya tidak peduli apa kata orang yang penting saya sebisa mungkin mengikuti pengaturan yang dibuat oleh organisasi. Sebenarnya sempat terpikir untuk menganggur selama 1 tahun dan merintis lalu mencoba kembali pada tahun berikutnya tapi setelah berdoa dan tanya sana-sini saya menyimpulkan "merintis pilihan terbaik dalam hidup, tapi harus dengan motif yang benar baru dapat menghasilkan sukacita" laaah orang motif saya adalah untuk mengisi waktu selama menganggur 1 tahun (jujur bangett ya? hehehe) pasti yang ada merintis menjadi kewajiban. Memang sulit di Bandung ini untuk melanjutkan pendidikan ke institusi swasta yang tidak berada di bawah naungan Babel Besar. Tapi tidak ada penyesalan dan kegelisahan dalam hidup saya merupakan berkat terbesar dari Yehuwa. Sekarang saya bisa tenang dan fokus untuk melayani.

I liked him a lot, he was my first crush or cinta monkey. Can you imagine fall in love with someone for 5 years? He's the first boy I was so afraid to lose, the boy that changed me, changed my expectations, change the way I looked at myself and the world. People often says that the first time you fall in love, it changes your life forever, and no matter how hard you try the feeling never goes away. For me first crush is a little foolish and a lot of curiosity.

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here, 'til the moment I'm gone. You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign. Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be. But you're on to me and all over me. I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground. But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.

Sara Bareilles - Gravity

bisa gila juga ya ngeiliat orangnya ada disitu, berpapasan, ngobrol ama yg disebelah kita tapi tanpa mengucapkan sepatah kata pun ke kita. soo childish tapi mau gimana coba?? udah awkward! rasanya bukan sama dia lagi dan ga mau sama dia lagi. banyak yg sampe sekarang masih beranggapan kalo saya masih cinta mati sama dia tapi kenyataanya saya sama sekali ga ada feel sama dia walaupun memang ada certain times merasa kehilangan sesosok pujaan hati ini. Just so you all know, i have no feeling for him anymore!

2 Years Ago kita maen aja terus bareng"... nomat teroos, makan terusss, maen kerumah ella terus ketawa ketiwi ngomongin spongebob atau apalah. Soooo many things we've done together, things that i thought would be last for forever or at least till now.

NOW!do you even know meeeeeeee???!!! well that kind of expression and reactions are not for someone who you already know. Even its hard to say, but thank you because you make the feelings goes away. You don't know how hurt it was to see you but no words came out from your mouth. AWKWARD!! I both lose a friend and brother today. But no matter what, kita tetep sodara seiman yaaaa ......

No. Peserta PMBP-ITB 2009 anda : "091001008"
Anda tidak diterima sebagai mahasiswa ITB melalui PMBP-ITB 2009 Terpusat
Means : ITB doesn't want me.

My eyes were hurt when i saw this but my heart weirdly accept and ready to move on about it. Goodbye for my holy trinity and hello reality which include study harder.

I hardly can remember when was my last post.
Well just so you guys know, the beloved national exam has passed away and so did my holy trinity exams. I'm in the verge of both happiness and craziness because i finally can do whatever i want to do but there's gonna be a road bumps ahead. My national exam's result is a week ahead and will be follow by ITB's result. For my national exam, i can say im pretty stress out but as for my ITB's result, all i can say is that ITS A MIRACLE IF I GET TRU!
Need y'all supports and prays. Thankss ...

Seriously cowook jaim itu disgusting! hahahha . How can a guy acts like that? For me, men are the most insensitive human in this world but why and how can i meet this guy?? He happens to be sensitive guy especially when he's around annoying or crowded places. He can shout to WOMEN or says some jumble words that will stick right tru our heart if he dislike our actions. It's 2009 and i watched Lipstick Jungle! Women are now wearing stiletto that can step on men's head, so be careful and learn some from us. Even so, women are the "you have to understand us" creature but now i think i switched place with this guy. One thing i hate the most is his facial expression, he shows it all from his face, when he gets mad, when he gets sad or when he gets annoyed ewww that thing came from underage woman like me but he is a man and he's not even an underage. I (well not just me but all of his friends) should understand what he wants. As a friend i would stand this, but i think i don't need a friends who doesn't accept who i am or my friends is. We are annoying and so what????!!!

This week is all about craziness. On Monday to Wednesday i have to face up the tryouts for final exams. On Saturday, tryout from GO is coming up. On Sunday tryout from Vilmer will beat me up. Argghhh i need to stop all of this things. Please finals....can i skip you?

If I die tomorrow, there will be people who have totally different memories of me. To one person I might be the bitch who thought she was better. To another person I might be the ugliest person on this planet. To her I might be the gorgeous, lucky girl who she despised because I was spoiled rotten. To another girl I might be the girl who got really good english grades, so jealousy erupted. To him I might be the girl with the annoying laugh. To another guy I could be remembered as the girl who wasn’t anything to him. Maybe I’ll be remembered as the girl who was always on her phone. But none of that matters. You know why? By my best friends I’ll be remembered as the girl with the contagious laugh and the girl they would go to if they ever needed anything. By my family I’ll be remembered as the most amazing and beautiful girl. But most of all, I’ll be remembered by my enemies as the greatest thing they couldn’t add up to.

Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it's a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them.

The Old Year has gone. Let the dead past bury its own dead. The New Year has taken possession of the clock of time. All hail the duties and possibilities of the coming twelve months! Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right!

I know its to late to celebrate or greetings. But i didn't and don't celebrate or greetings, its inappropriate according to the bible. But today is 2009 and everyone try to fulfill their resolutions. I do think New Year's resolutions can't technically be expected to begin on New Year's Day, don't you? Since, because it's an extension of New Year's Eve, smokers are already on a smoking roll and cannot be expected to stop abruptly on the stroke of midnight with so much nicotine in the system. Also dieting on New Year's Day isn't a good idea as you can't eat rationally but really need to be free to consume whatever is necessary, moment by moment, in order to ease your hangover. I think it would be much more sensible if resolutions began generally on January the second or third or fourth hahahahaha. It doesn't take a New Year to do something right and good to yourself. It only takes one thing "determination" or maybe "discipline". Ciaaooo!

Lets talk about Bandung Institute of Technology or most known as ITB. Since my mother doesn't allow me to study out of Bandung areas so i have only one option from the holy trinity and it goes to ITB. I still remember when my brother graduated from ITB and got married, I told my family that one day i want to study at ITB because i want to get married quickly after i graduate from university, just like my brother hahahahaha. But it was a little girl's dream , as i grow up i know that ITB prides itself on its reputation as one of the country's centers of excellence in science, technology, and art, and was considered the top choice among Indonesia's high school students including me. ITB also recognize from their notable people and alumni such as our first President of Indonesia, Soekarno.
Sounds like desperation? yeess but nooo please . If ITB have a legacy admission, then there's a big chance for me to get in there. My father was and old alma mater and lectureship of ITB. SO WHY THERE IS NO LEGACY SYSTEM IN ITB ??? Even in America, children of graduates make up 10 to 15 percent of incoming classes at most Ivy League schools. Harvard accepts 40 percent and Princeton accepts 35 percent of legacies. I encourage top university here in Indonesia to adopt legacy admission. But reality does bites, and study does bites me too! So now, I need to get any open chances to study at one of the holy trinity. Its for the future yooo! But if i don't get any of the holy trinity then its fine, I'm ready to hang out with trustafarians and get my hair dreadlocked in Parahyangan or Maranatha. Just wish me luck with everything okay!

Top Universities in Indonesia 2008

1. Gadjah Mada University (UGM)
   
2. Bandung Institute of Technology (ITB)
3. University of Indonesia (UI)
   
4. Brawijaya University
   
5. Bogor Agriculture University (IPB)
   
6. Petra Christian University
   
7. Institute Technology Sepuluh November
   
8. Hasanudin University
   
9. Sekolah Tinggi Telkom
   
10. Airlangga University
    
11. Gunadarma University
    
12. Polytechnic Institute Surabaya
    
13. Bina Nusantara University
    
14. Parahayangan University

Top Universities in Indonesia 2008, according to Globe Asia’s Guide to Indonesian Universities
Public Universities

1. University of Indonesia (UI)
   
2. Gadjah Mada University (UGM)
   
3. Bandung Institute of Technology (ITB)
   
4. Bogor Agriculture University (IPB)
   
5. Padjajaran University

Private Universities

1. Pelita Harapan University
2. Trisakti University
3. Tarumanegara University
4. Atmajaya University
5. Parahayangan University

Everyone knows that the only real great universities here in Indonesia are the holy trinity: UI, UGM and ITB. Why i called them holy trinity ?? because how hard you use your money to get in there, they are still considering your knowledge. As for me, I lack focus and discipline. I know that money is all well and good, but in the real world, knowledge is power. Since i got a social class, the only chance for me to get into the holy trinity is majoring nontechnical major such as economic, fine art, and law. I choose Faculty of Art and Design for Bandung Institute of Technology and ironically thats it!!! Some friends and family encourage me to go to Parahayangan University or Padjajaran University or even worse Maranatha University. Eventhough my deductive reasoning skills are perfect for a place like those universities but place like 'em are full of an enclave of trustafarians and celebrity wannabes who major in drum circle or somewhat famous courses. I'm not looking forward see myself stuck again with my old Ella in the future. I need a university that can chance the boost my confidence and of course boost my knowledge, so please take me to the holy trinity!!

ampuunn! kaget ga sih kalo temen + sahabat kamu ternyata orangnya "sana-sini oke", kamu misalnya curhat masalah kamu tentang si A trus dia support pandangan kamu yang mungkin bisa aja negatif eeehhh trus waktu si A cerita tentang gw dia juga support pandangan si A yang mungkin aja negatif. Temen kayak gini nih yang gila, udah ga trust-worthy ditambah ga bisa stand up buat kita. I don't need wealthy, pretty and famous friend, all i need is a friend who tell me whats wrong with me and whats good inside me, stand up for me when everybody bring me down, courage me to improving spiritually and trust worth! Eventho i have friend like that, what happen to other friends of mine sometime shake my trust to what friendship is. Frankly, human esp me can't live alone but get hurt easily by other. But thanks to god who always teach me to forgive and forget, without him my life cant be as peaceful as now.

Matthew 6:14-15