Unknown talk and friend stab, that's how it should be but with me you will never know what to talk and where to stab. People often talk about everything im not and that's somehow truly hurt but hey they're unknown, i dont do bad things and they dont know me as much as they think they are. Friend often stab his/her own friend but they never realize it, why? because its what they are, they cant even help it. For me, i have a really good social circle eventhough i might find those kind of people and friends but i will always forgive for a thing they didn't even do.

Ephesians 4:26,27

After studied math, i suddenly think about what future holds! Well not that so-called future but just what college i will apply in to next year. Somehow it become so complicated, lots of great college names runs to my head and i even cant make it to three. My current desire is ITB, why? oh please don't ask! its just simply because its good. What I'm going study there? i don't know, but because i got social class i can only major in fine art and business. Ughh i got this nerve-wreck feelings when i talk about college because i know the time will come when i finally take off my putih-abuabu uniform and feel how hard is it to be a MAHASISWI. No wayy! i need to calm down!

ohh ella you still have UAN coming soon, those university decision is way ahead kay?!

Love Your Darling Ella

Yohaaa! I can't believe I am officially seventeen yesterday, yet it did not feel like such. It was a seventeen and i wasn't celebrating any of it. Who do i have become? nobody. What do i have achieve? nothing. Every year those questions runs to my head, especially when it comes to birthday. A day when you realize you are growing old, reducing random attitudes, adding mature qualities, guessing what future holds and making great memories. The only thing that makes me happy when it comes to birthday is the "im old enough" kind of thought. Well its a thought not a reality, reality is an upside down of your thought and it kills me somehow.

Loves Your Darling Ella ...

Your first love. You know who I’m talking about because I bet you read the words ‘first love’ and that one boy came into your mind. There’s nothing like the first boy you were so afraid to lose, the boy that changed you, changed your expectations, change the way you looked at yourself and the world, the one that you will compare all other guys to because you know he’s the one that set the standards for love.

Dulu ku tak pernah percayakan cinta yang tak harus memiliki. Pernah ku paksakan walau tak sejalan meski ku tau ku salah kini ku akui hatiku tak bisa slalu miliki dirimu. Dan ku coba melupakanmu karna ku tau kau bukan milikku dan ku coba 'tuk bertahan.

"menapak jalan yg menjauh, tentukan arah yg ku mau, tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa yg membuat hati lara, di dekat engkau aku tenang, sendu matamu penuh tanya misteri hidup akankah menghilang dan bahagia di akhir cerita ..... "

Hari ini tampak ga ada kerjaan, jadinya ella ngeliat" archive blog ella dan ternyata rame" juga yaa... rugi klo pada ga buka archivenya ella. Biar lebih gampang ella kasih review dan link nya. Dibawah ini adalah beberapa link dari cerita" yg ella rasa paling berkesan selama ella nulis blog. Dibaca yaaa...

12/o5 Mom and Dad's anniversary Story
o7/o6 o6' District Convention Story
o8/o6 Ella is ... Ella loves ... Story
08/06 My music discovery Story
10/06 Lagenta Story the story i miss the most, spending a lots of fun times with Bandung Barat is the greatest thing I've ever imagine.
12/o6 Music is ... Story
o6/o7 Inlove Story

First week at Perth

Went to window shopping at Perth City

Lunch at Kings Park








Went to Fremantle with train and then lunch at the beach

Kemaren rocktofolio wawancara ella via msn, katanya sih profile ella di friendster catches their eyes, trus mereka wawancara deh tapi belum tentu bakal dimasukin website mereka katanya. Masih dimasukin waiting list dulu. Jadi mendingan dipost aja diblog ella biar bisa dibaca ama teman"....

Cita-cita ella and how to achieve it?
Ummm cita cita sih banyak tapi kalau cita-cita jangka pendeknya adalah membuat sebuah band accoustic dengan saya sebagai vocal hhaha.. cita-jangka panjangnya adalah menjadi designer How I achieve it? Nyanyi" aja dikamar mandi untuk melatih vocal dan klo ada acara-acara ella juga sering nyanyi.. Tentang designer, utk sekarang" lagi seneng bikin sketches plus belajar bikin pattern ke nyokap,secara nyokap penjahit kenamaan bangsa hhahha..

Nyanyi di kamar mandi?? bener juga tuh...
hahhaaha

What is art for you?
Gila pertanyaannya mantep euy. Well for me or me art is my hidden soul. Art adalah sarana dimana gue bisa mengekspresikan sesuatu yg ga gue bisa ekspresikan secara langsung.
Art is the greatest medicine when i get stress out. Kadang kala kita tidak bisa menebak apa yg kita rasakan dan itu membuat kita bingung, tapi dgn art kita bisa menemukan sesuatu yg baru dari diri kita.

Hmmm..which one’s worst,plagiarism or piracy?
Plagiarism karena ga ada hukum against it, jadi orang-orang semakin berani dan gak tau malu utg menjadi anggota persatuan plagiat dunia.

Kalo lo diibaratkan suatu warna, what would it be and why?
Umm it'd brown, karena brown gak jauh beda dari hitam yg bisa di match ama warna-warna lain cuman keliatan bagus hanya utk warna tertentu so brown is pretty exclusive, kalau dilihat pertama kali brown itu ga ada specialnya tapi klo diliat constantly brown itu menenangkan and brings peace into your mind just like me.hahaha.

Guitarist or bassist?
To play is guitar because i cant play bass but to hear is bass because it has unique sounds.

Guilty pleasure?
My hidden sins (ihh serem bgd ya).

Punya role model?
Yes, jesus christ, hes the best!

Denger-denger suka photography, sejauh mana sih lo mendalaminya?
Iya suka banget, belum terlalu dalem sih.. fasilitas belum memadai.. so i prefer editing

So, sejauh mana lo mendalami photo editing?
Kalau bisa sejauh-jauhnya, photo editing menyenangkan bgd tapi kadang-kadang kalau udah mentok gue mati gaya banget.. beda ama drawing sketches

Jadi menurut lo apa bedanya photo editing dan drawing sketches?
Karena gue photo editing di computer so my creativity is limited, mulai dari photo brushesnya trus filternya dan lain-lain...tapi kalau drawing sketches kan di kertas jadi gue bisa sebebas mungkin mengekspresikan mood gue.. robek robek deh kertas

Oh iya musik...sepenting apakah musik buat seorang ella?
Ummm penting bgd. Music can easily affect my mood.

Lagi dengerin apa akhir-akhir ini?
Lagi mendalami accoustic-ambient-shoegaze musics trus lagi suka Black Violin, they have great instrument.

Apa yang terlintas ketika kau berpikir tentang diri sendiri?
Narsist, standar bgd ya jawabanya ABG banget hhahaaah tapi klo menurut gue sih hanya orang lain yang bisa memberikan penilaian objektif tentang diri gue sendiri.

Ella's type of boyfriend.personality dan fisik..
Well personalitynyah, seiman dan scr religius sanggup membimbing gw, harus pengertian, sabar, hard worker, smart and bertanggung jawab and ohh NICE...klo fisik sih gak macem" but i like tall guys and suaranya harus berat..

Menurut lo sendiri cowo smart kayak gimana?
Umm Educationally high... terutama dari omongan trus dari akademisnya juga

Cowok paling seksi kalo lagi ngapain?
Lagi merhatiin gue ngomong..it looks like they have deeply respect on my opinion.

Tipe cowo yg pengen kamu buang jauh-jauh?
Cowok yang nggak mau usaha, nggak punya skill dan cuma modal tampang sama duit buat tepe-tepe....

Apa artinya kehidupan buat kamu?
Life is like a canvas. You have to draw in it to make your life as beautiful as you can, as colourful as you can and as perfect as you can. Mantaph kan jawabanya hhahahaa

Iya mantap banget deh la...

The most hated thing in the world?
It would be ummm get lost in my own mind.

The most favourite thing in the world?
Peace yes peace man.hahaah

10 years from now, Ella adalah seorang..
Seorang wanita karier yg baru lulus dari s2 major in visual merchandising or design management dan mempunya seorang tunangan yg kaya (bukan dari bokap) bekerja sebagai seniman ( entah itu web designer, painter, designer, interior designer atau photographer).

Dimana gue bisa menemukan seorang Ella di sepuluh tahun mendatang?
Di kantor salah satu boutique kenamaan dunia bekerja sebagai creative director atau sedang bekerja di gallery calon suami hahaha.

Bener nih ya ntar gue cari di boutique" harus ada lo yaaa...
Well thanks ella...
I'll contact you soon deh...
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Cintapuchino adalah satu-satunya film lokal yg paling bisa saya hayatin, secara saya ngerasain banget apa yg mba Rahmi rasakan yaitu obsesi ga kesampean *hha. Rahmi dicerita ini obsesi sama mas Nimo yaitu kaka kelasnya semasa sma. Mba Rahmi ngebela"in masuk ekstrakulikuler keamanan sekolah yg pengurusnya itu mas Nimo. Mba Rahmi juga masuk fakultas yg sama dgn mas Nimo semasa kuliahnya. Setelah 8 taun (kalau gak salah) mereka tidak bertemu, secara tidak sengaja mereka pun bertemu. Nahh disini nih gilanya, dengan statusnya udah dilamar calon suami yg dikira a perfect guy to spend her life with mba Rahmi pun jatuh cinta lagi utk kesekian kalinya ke mas Nimo yg tiba" masuk ke kehidupanny.
Jujur, saya ngebelain calon suaminya mba Rahmi aka pa Raka. Nimo tuh bejat banget! dia pernah ga mikir perasaan mba Rahmi pas dia jadian ama selusin cewe" semasa sma plus kuliahnya? Seenaknya aja dia dateng trus bilang " selama ini gw nyari" lo ".Bullshit bgd!
Well overall story sih, saya suka banget cintapuchino karena udah pernah baca cerita ini 2 kali dan tetep nangis. How ironic?

Hope and reality sometimes can be the worst enemy in our life. Since our hope couldn't get along with reality. Everything feels like against us, even our hope. Hope is something we wish could happen and reality is something we have to face and walk on. Its heart breaking when our wishes actually never happen. But have you ever think that life is not always easy and smooth as we wish. . . the world needs balance, so when everything goes to smooth, its totally suspicious. How ironic?

Baru selesai masalah A dateng masalah B dikuti masalah C dan seterusssnya. . . kayaknya gak akan pernah ada kata selesai buat masalah. Well, problem is a part of our life and we have to face it not run from it. Banyak orang cenderung lari dari berbagai masalah. Orang-orang berpikir bahwa dengan lari dari masalah itu akan menyelesaikan masalah, tapi mayoritas orang yg lari dari masalah malah masuk ke masalah lainnya. Sebenarnya lari dari masalah gak salah kok, tapi kemana kita lari yg jadi masalah. Most of people who run from problems are clueless. Jadi, apakah orang yg clueless bisa dengan bijaksana memilih jalan hidupnya?

For me, i take problems as a lesson of my life. Sometimes you learn the best thing in life from the worst thing happen. Problems aren't that bad if you stay focus on your personal hope. All you need to do is take life as it comes and do not regret anything but fix your faults. Problems can be so much more easier if you. . . once again, stay focus on your personal hope. And do not run from problems because how fast are you running from problems, problems will chase you until you face them and beat them.

when you are inlove it means you are ready to get hurt.
especially when you know deeper of somebody you inlove with.
you'll find out that he have a crush that is not you.
you'll find out that he hates something you like.
you'll find out that he thinks of something that never comes through your mind.
well, im not ready to get hurt but i always inlove.

Ella

Tez blanca como la nieve.
Colmillos afilados que desgarrarán tu cuello
Ojos en los que se vislumbra el deseo.
Belleza que no se puede describir solo con palabras.

Es ella, ese ser inmortal llamado vampiro que se alimenta de la sangre de aquellas personas ingenuas que le muestran un centímetro de cuello.
Mordisco limpio y directo a la yugular que te mata rápidamente, pero antes de morir notas como tu sangre ya no te pertenece, ya no está en tu cuerpo, está en el de ella.
La única manera de matarla es clavándole una estaca directamente en el corazón.
Muchos lo han intentado, pero nadie lo ha conseguido, porque se quedan eclipsados, admirando tanta belleza en una sola mujer.
En ese segundo que bajan la guardia, ella de un salto, ataca al cuello y les chupa toda la sangre.
Lo último que ven sus ojos es a la mujer más hermosa que haya pisado la tierra, arrebatándoles la vida de un solo y certero mordisco.

Aquí estoy, delante del ataúd, dispuesto y mentalizado para matarla, para arrancarle la vida como ella lo ha hecho con tanta gente inocente, ya sean hombres, mujeres o niños.
Debo darme prisa, faltan pocos minutos para que anochezca.
Llevo la estaca en la mano, de un solo golpe se lo clavaré en el corazón.
Abro el ataúd y la veo ahí tendida, durmiendo con su precioso vestido negro, estirado de una forma muy cuidadosa.

Me quedo impresionado al verla.
Es bellísima.
Levanto la estaca, pero no soy capaz de clavársela.
Creo que me he enamorado.

Sin darme cuenta ya ha anochecido.
Sin tiempo de reaccionar, ella abre los ojos, se lanza a mí y… me muerde.

Music is . . .

Beautiful,

Every long, lost stream, led me to where you are.
~ Bless The Broken Road - Rascal Flatts


Wishful,
Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got til its gone.
~Big Yellow Taxi - Counting Crows, Vanessa Carlton


Provocative,
My hips don't lie, and im starting to feel it's right
~Hips Don't Lie - Wyclef Jean, Shakira


Praising
For that smile, and those eyes.
~Poetically Pathetic - Amber Pacific


Benign,
I believe i can, i believe i will.
~I Believe - Yolanda Adams


Deviant,
Give a moment or two to the angry young man.
~Angry Young Man - Billy Joel


Nostalgic,
But i know, that ill wait another day, til you're here by my side.
~Another Day - G4


Ethereal,
Follow you're heart, let you're love lead through the darkness.
~I Believe in You - Il Divo, Celine Dion


Forlorn,
And we can cry with hope, we can say goodbye with hope.
~With Hope - Steven Curtis Chapman


Blessed,
I'm that star up in the sky, im that mountain peak up high.
~World's Greatest - R. Kelly



Halcyon,
When all the dreaming, scheming and screaming, become one.
~This is the Moment - Eric Santos



Graceful,
Rain outside my window, pouring down.
~I'm Sorry - Craig David



Metamorphical,
So take a good look at my face, you'll see my smile looks out of place.
~The Track of my Tears - Human Nature (a cappella)



Inspirational,
I'm so glad that he let me try it again.
~Higher Ground - Stevie Wonder



Hopeful
Cause every moment, we share together, is even better, than the moments before.
~Moments - Westlife



Re-assuring
Whisper words of wisdom, let is be.
~Let It Be - The Beatles