No. Peserta PMBP-ITB 2009 anda : "091001008"
Anda tidak diterima sebagai mahasiswa ITB melalui PMBP-ITB 2009 Terpusat
Means : ITB doesn't want me.

My eyes were hurt when i saw this but my heart weirdly accept and ready to move on about it. Goodbye for my holy trinity and hello reality which include study harder.

I hardly can remember when was my last post.
Well just so you guys know, the beloved national exam has passed away and so did my holy trinity exams. I'm in the verge of both happiness and craziness because i finally can do whatever i want to do but there's gonna be a road bumps ahead. My national exam's result is a week ahead and will be follow by ITB's result. For my national exam, i can say im pretty stress out but as for my ITB's result, all i can say is that ITS A MIRACLE IF I GET TRU!
Need y'all supports and prays. Thankss ...

Seriously cowook jaim itu disgusting! hahahha . How can a guy acts like that? For me, men are the most insensitive human in this world but why and how can i meet this guy?? He happens to be sensitive guy especially when he's around annoying or crowded places. He can shout to WOMEN or says some jumble words that will stick right tru our heart if he dislike our actions. It's 2009 and i watched Lipstick Jungle! Women are now wearing stiletto that can step on men's head, so be careful and learn some from us. Even so, women are the "you have to understand us" creature but now i think i switched place with this guy. One thing i hate the most is his facial expression, he shows it all from his face, when he gets mad, when he gets sad or when he gets annoyed ewww that thing came from underage woman like me but he is a man and he's not even an underage. I (well not just me but all of his friends) should understand what he wants. As a friend i would stand this, but i think i don't need a friends who doesn't accept who i am or my friends is. We are annoying and so what????!!!

This week is all about craziness. On Monday to Wednesday i have to face up the tryouts for final exams. On Saturday, tryout from GO is coming up. On Sunday tryout from Vilmer will beat me up. Argghhh i need to stop all of this things. Please finals....can i skip you?

If I die tomorrow, there will be people who have totally different memories of me. To one person I might be the bitch who thought she was better. To another person I might be the ugliest person on this planet. To her I might be the gorgeous, lucky girl who she despised because I was spoiled rotten. To another girl I might be the girl who got really good english grades, so jealousy erupted. To him I might be the girl with the annoying laugh. To another guy I could be remembered as the girl who wasn’t anything to him. Maybe I’ll be remembered as the girl who was always on her phone. But none of that matters. You know why? By my best friends I’ll be remembered as the girl with the contagious laugh and the girl they would go to if they ever needed anything. By my family I’ll be remembered as the most amazing and beautiful girl. But most of all, I’ll be remembered by my enemies as the greatest thing they couldn’t add up to.

Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value. Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value. If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved. You will always think it's a mistake or luck. Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within. Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences. Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security. Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them.

The Old Year has gone. Let the dead past bury its own dead. The New Year has taken possession of the clock of time. All hail the duties and possibilities of the coming twelve months! Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right!

I know its to late to celebrate or greetings. But i didn't and don't celebrate or greetings, its inappropriate according to the bible. But today is 2009 and everyone try to fulfill their resolutions. I do think New Year's resolutions can't technically be expected to begin on New Year's Day, don't you? Since, because it's an extension of New Year's Eve, smokers are already on a smoking roll and cannot be expected to stop abruptly on the stroke of midnight with so much nicotine in the system. Also dieting on New Year's Day isn't a good idea as you can't eat rationally but really need to be free to consume whatever is necessary, moment by moment, in order to ease your hangover. I think it would be much more sensible if resolutions began generally on January the second or third or fourth hahahahaha. It doesn't take a New Year to do something right and good to yourself. It only takes one thing "determination" or maybe "discipline". Ciaaooo!

Lets talk about Bandung Institute of Technology or most known as ITB. Since my mother doesn't allow me to study out of Bandung areas so i have only one option from the holy trinity and it goes to ITB. I still remember when my brother graduated from ITB and got married, I told my family that one day i want to study at ITB because i want to get married quickly after i graduate from university, just like my brother hahahahaha. But it was a little girl's dream , as i grow up i know that ITB prides itself on its reputation as one of the country's centers of excellence in science, technology, and art, and was considered the top choice among Indonesia's high school students including me. ITB also recognize from their notable people and alumni such as our first President of Indonesia, Soekarno.
Sounds like desperation? yeess but nooo please . If ITB have a legacy admission, then there's a big chance for me to get in there. My father was and old alma mater and lectureship of ITB. SO WHY THERE IS NO LEGACY SYSTEM IN ITB ??? Even in America, children of graduates make up 10 to 15 percent of incoming classes at most Ivy League schools. Harvard accepts 40 percent and Princeton accepts 35 percent of legacies. I encourage top university here in Indonesia to adopt legacy admission. But reality does bites, and study does bites me too! So now, I need to get any open chances to study at one of the holy trinity. Its for the future yooo! But if i don't get any of the holy trinity then its fine, I'm ready to hang out with trustafarians and get my hair dreadlocked in Parahyangan or Maranatha. Just wish me luck with everything okay!

Top Universities in Indonesia 2008

1. Gadjah Mada University (UGM)
   
2. Bandung Institute of Technology (ITB)
3. University of Indonesia (UI)
   
4. Brawijaya University
   
5. Bogor Agriculture University (IPB)
   
6. Petra Christian University
   
7. Institute Technology Sepuluh November
   
8. Hasanudin University
   
9. Sekolah Tinggi Telkom
   
10. Airlangga University
    
11. Gunadarma University
    
12. Polytechnic Institute Surabaya
    
13. Bina Nusantara University
    
14. Parahayangan University

Top Universities in Indonesia 2008, according to Globe Asia’s Guide to Indonesian Universities
Public Universities

1. University of Indonesia (UI)
   
2. Gadjah Mada University (UGM)
   
3. Bandung Institute of Technology (ITB)
   
4. Bogor Agriculture University (IPB)
   
5. Padjajaran University

Private Universities

1. Pelita Harapan University
2. Trisakti University
3. Tarumanegara University
4. Atmajaya University
5. Parahayangan University

Everyone knows that the only real great universities here in Indonesia are the holy trinity: UI, UGM and ITB. Why i called them holy trinity ?? because how hard you use your money to get in there, they are still considering your knowledge. As for me, I lack focus and discipline. I know that money is all well and good, but in the real world, knowledge is power. Since i got a social class, the only chance for me to get into the holy trinity is majoring nontechnical major such as economic, fine art, and law. I choose Faculty of Art and Design for Bandung Institute of Technology and ironically thats it!!! Some friends and family encourage me to go to Parahayangan University or Padjajaran University or even worse Maranatha University. Eventhough my deductive reasoning skills are perfect for a place like those universities but place like 'em are full of an enclave of trustafarians and celebrity wannabes who major in drum circle or somewhat famous courses. I'm not looking forward see myself stuck again with my old Ella in the future. I need a university that can chance the boost my confidence and of course boost my knowledge, so please take me to the holy trinity!!

ampuunn! kaget ga sih kalo temen + sahabat kamu ternyata orangnya "sana-sini oke", kamu misalnya curhat masalah kamu tentang si A trus dia support pandangan kamu yang mungkin bisa aja negatif eeehhh trus waktu si A cerita tentang gw dia juga support pandangan si A yang mungkin aja negatif. Temen kayak gini nih yang gila, udah ga trust-worthy ditambah ga bisa stand up buat kita. I don't need wealthy, pretty and famous friend, all i need is a friend who tell me whats wrong with me and whats good inside me, stand up for me when everybody bring me down, courage me to improving spiritually and trust worth! Eventho i have friend like that, what happen to other friends of mine sometime shake my trust to what friendship is. Frankly, human esp me can't live alone but get hurt easily by other. But thanks to god who always teach me to forgive and forget, without him my life cant be as peaceful as now.

Matthew 6:14-15

My life recently is like a circle, not improving and moving. Mistakes I've made somehow i make it again, words i said somehow i say it again, routines i did somehow i do it again. Its kinda of boring to draw a circle repeatedly on a piece of paper, when it is first drawn it is very light and pure but the more times the circle is drawn however, the more distort and blackened it becomes. I hardly stop doing mistakes I've already made from the past and yess its stupid. I think i need to take a lot of time to meditate and calm my mind.

Matthew 6:14

Do you know that people spread the word not that correctly? Frankly they do, they are imperfect human. The best way to keep one's word is simply not to give it. Because what is told in the ear of somebody is often heard 100 miles away. Nowadays there are persons who when they cease to shock us, they cease to interest us. And also remember that whoever gossips to you will gossip about you. Does gossip sounds that scary? yess it is and as for me, i make myself clear that I'm not into any scandal or gossip anymore, at least for now. Anonymous asked "What's the difference between gossip and scandal?" Well anyone can commit a minor indiscretion and generate a day's worth of buzz. But in order to birth a true scandal, it requires the right person to be in the wrong place. How about take you on a pedestal, add a crowd eager to see you fall and give them the means to knock you down, you know how it ends.
What about those who talks? Gossip shouldn't make you mad if you aren't refuse to make it too. Terima aja deh kalo diomongin toh lu juga suka ngomongin. Have you realized that sometimes, in an effort to spread the most outrageous rumors, they look over the very thing that's even more scandalous—the truth. And the only thing more shocking than the truth are the lies people tell to cover it up. If there's one thing I've learned, it's that there would be no gossip without secrets.

Proverbs 25:18

Dreams.
Everyone has them. Some good, some bad.
Some you wish you could forget.
Sometimes you realize, you've outgrown them.
Sometimes you feel like they're finally coming true.
And some of us, just have nightmares.
But no matter what you dream, when morning comes,
reality intrudes and the dream begins to slip away.
Dream a little dream of me.

Well its senior year and it means wherever you go they always will ask you " mau kuliah dimana ? " as for me , i have no idea . Successful parents expect nothing less from their offspring. and when it comes to college, that means ITB ? hahahaha . But for me its more than just getting into college, its setting a course for the rest of my life . Right now the only thing i wanna do is pray pray pray for an answer . God always shows the way, the right way .

1 Thessalonians 5:7

Tried to take a picture of love, didn't think I'd miss him that much and I wanna fill this new frame but it's empty. Maybe im trying too hard, maybe im torn apart, maybe the timing is beating my hearts but im empty.